So, the truth does hurt. After all i actually know what it really means. Passing every day of my life, this is the time i've considered my self knowing the truth and getting hurt, getting upset not knowing the next move. When i think about it, i just want reality to end. Just for it to stop, so i can step back and think . I never think before i make the move, so instead i hurt so much people, even the person that I've been trough so much with, the one i would get mad at but yet still love them so much. The fact the you're not okay, makes me just think harder, if i even made a mistake, and trough the damn years we're still here, keeping our heads up pretending nothing has happened, you've decide to keep your mouth shut, and I've decided to be a fool and not say anything. The fact the I see you and know that your hurting inside kills me, as much as i want to tell you how sorry i am, for hurting you all the years.I can't. The times when you felt like giving up on me but yet still kept being the bigger person and managing to be the person i look up to . Someone like you that can get trough so much, the one the sees someone gone but always gets back up, someone that keeps it in just for a best friend, from the time i hurt you till now, you've never given up on me, you've never failed to be the friend I've always wanted. And if i can show you how much I'm sorry i would, I'd give up everything for you, everything you've always wanted. I'd rather see you happy, because me getting hurt at the end, doesn't hurt as much as the times you did, the years you've gone trough, the bullshit you had to put up with , the nights when you cry and wake up the next morning with a teardrop. It's really unexplainable but, i just don't want to hide it, i don't want to pretend like a shadow following us and not even noticing it. The days when you had to bare with me, all the achievements I've made because of my stupidity. It always ends up to be you, you that always takes my consequences. and it hurts so much , and what's even funnier is that sometimes i think you're not a really good friend, but really your close to being perfect, imagine . you've been going trough so much things, the time you've gotten hurt, loosing someone you love so much, pretending you're happy in front of us but really inside, you're hurt. You've been wanting to be a good friend, and I'm sorry for all the times when i showed you that i didn't appreciate you always being there, i mean seriously , you're there when i need a shoulder to cry on, you're there when i feel like shit and everything's wrong, you're there to always make me feel better. Hanging out, having inside jokes. sleepovers, you name it. But at end I'm really the wrong one, and that's the truth, the truth i have to overcome and deal with. I'm sorry for being such a bad best friend, even just a friend. I know you won't ever forget about all the stuff that hurt you, but even though you think nothings wrong, I'm sorry for even being stupid , because you don't deserve it, i do. If you only knew how much, i want to be forgiven and how much I'm sorry for, I'll show you from every way, but unfortunately it won't happen. Just know that i mean it, i mean it from the deepest part of my heart, you've been the best friend , and i've the bad friend. Know that I'm sorry and that even if we move on from here, I'll treasure everything you did for me, remember all the good times, cherish our friendship.
 No one has a perfect life,
No perfect future,
No pefect past,
No perfect present,
No pefect gift.
 Nothing's perfect, but nothing's impossible.
-karengamus.