When will i turn it all around?

hello, bloggers .
Well it's another day, another day wasted.yeah , life sucks so much . -_-' like i swear no other persons life can get worst; mine is at the worst. School sucks, so much work to do, ugh why can't ijust go back to kindergarten . like honestly. everyday that God made , i always say FML i mean, i hate saying that, makes me feel bad, makes my friends feel bad, but life just leaves me with no choice but to say it. Now, everyday i just barely make it trough without being so weak, in everything . I mean i like fail in everything, EVERYTHING. tests, quizes, being a good friend. you name it. I say to myself, "don't worry , you'll get trough; tomorrow will be another day to turn everything around." tomorrow comes & yet I'm still in the position where i left . Every night , i come to the point saying "everything is a mistake, everything i do i turn out regretting, so is this what i am going to say for the rest of my life? For the past few weeks, i've been so down like i mean okay i smile, i laugh . but at the end of the day the frowns still gets me and wins . I mean , don't get me wrong i have so much friends that support me, but i guess its just me; everyday im just getting worst and worst like some sickness no medicine can heal. ugh, i myself can't understand like seriously, when will i ever loose this? I'm so unlucky, and i actually feel bad that people know me have me in lives, coz im some bitch that doesn't cause you anything but pain. Sometimes i think, am i like too sensitive to take everything so personal? or like do i just dont think before i do something? or what is it really? There's so much questions & yet im left with no answer. not even , i only thought that this was only for a couple days, thinking aw, yo don't worry it's gonna be done soon you'll be back and & hyper and happy. but everyday my faith is shaking, and im just hanging on. but how, how long can i actually hang on?


please, take this misaree away ;
It's hard to know whats wrong when everything is not right.
FAILURE, has become a part of who i am.